Last week my
living location was a matter of concern; this week my living is what I am
choosing to address full time! Having just celebrated my 82nd
birthday, I became alarmed at having to announce my new age the day right after
my birthday.
Making the
rest of your life the best of your life is a step which must be taken if the
value of continuity is to be respected and welcomed. I have been devoting
myself to a serious Yoga practice this past two and a half years, a continuity
of a home practice for a few years and a three time a week practice when living
in Mexico until nine years ago. There is much to be uncovered once such a
practice begins .Uncovered, in my case, has been to unveil both my fear of
dying and my fear of not being quite sure of how to continue living without
letting my fear of dying obstruct my activities or plans!
There has
been, in evidence, the benefit of
decreasing my fear of demise insofar as my body has been allowing a great deal
of bend, sway, and stretch in a myriad of directions and positions while adding
to a sense of my own power to defer my final days!
Accompanying
this devoted practice four to five times a week has allowed me to think I just
may have the uncanny luck of ending my lifetime while on the Yoga mat! That
thought softens the idea of the final exit.
Every fiber
has come alive with added the added zest
of doing the asanas----not to be confused with exercises. These
Yoga positions are not feats of performance, but rather going deeper into
freedom of attachment from “achieving” or “proving”.
I run a busy
though not hectic life, teaching several languages to adult students,
performing from time to time in theatre pieces, my own, or from proven works
that have been published. I organized an Eilat playreaders’ group over a year
and a half ago, in English, which meets
weekly to read important theatre works and talk about the pieces as well as the
playwrights.
To live
NOW---and die LATER has been my current motto lo these past two years. The
momentum has increased with each passing month!
I encourage
all who are 50-60 and beyond to ponder less and do more, more that is, that
really matters to you!!
My taste in
folks has also elasticized. There are people now who appeal to me who would not
have in earlier years. I find more to accept and to appreciate in so many
different types of individuals who were edited from my choices heretofore.
My sex life
has increased beyond belief ---- slowly building over these last 22 years,
never flailing nor faltering, forever extending in satisfaction and
playfulness. That is, I believe, a very important segment of our lives to the
very end .New routes, new discoveries, not ever to be “the same old….”
I am an
atheist—I do not foresee an unknown future above and beyond. It is so clean to
be able to write that statement freely here in a land where the believers on
the right and the free thinkers on the left. My husband & I read aloud
daily after breakfast and before Yoga practice. Sam Harris, Julian Barnes and
the like are our muses. I cannot fathom anything about any religion to be true.
I do not find it worth diatribes any longer ---or splashy sentiments or anti
sentiment to disprove a worthless cause!
Enough for now; next week I will offer more specific
reactions to people I meet who have different beliefs from mine, different political attitudes, different fashion
choices, but who are, after all, human beings whose lives are ultimately going
in the same direction of mine----a finale!
Keep going
on, keep the engine pumping---and try a Yoga class, if you never have, or do
one after a few months or years of letting it go!
Signing off,
Miss Rheingold
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