I am not sure,
but I am sure it would count for something. A very close friend in Los Angeles
died two weeks ago, a sudden and horrid death after gross attempts to save him.
I remain convinced that both birth and death can be the most painful moments in
our lives whether or not we will be able to express such.
Upon reading
the news, I felt EVOL---- and old love----and a gripping sadness and disbelief
at the circumstances---
NO WARNING!
This was the
third demise in a month entering my life---it became
gripping--strangling--- untoward.
My belly
cramped, my throat tightened, and tears froze in the corners of my eyes.
I continued a
pressing life schedule, despite the additional physical pressure.
Now, in turning
around the letters of a deep emotion, I recognized another side to love.
There are so
many facets to love and EVOL------there is sexual love, of course, which seems
at the beginning to be the strongest. Then the love of our children or those of
others' children or for pets or for music or poetry or of life itself. There is
also twisted love that can turn to hate before we know why. Does love
heighten once death is involved? Do we forgive ore easily? There is love
of a book we cannot forget, or wish to share with many others.
It may be
that EVOL grows out of LOVE.I do not think it can grow the other way
around. We can grow tired of something we own, and wish to throw it out. The
Japanese have a word for something you love just because it has aged and maybe
even cracked.It can refer to a face or a vase or any other
object:SABI......they do not want to discard, but rather save the old or worn
object(s).
I often feel
all of the kinds of love I have mentioned above. How about you?
With emotion,
Miss Rheingold
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